Hey everyone! I've been getting so many messages about Gabriel's confession letters, especially that bombshell revelation about seeing Sol before the events of Betrayer even began. So many of you have said it made you want to immediately reread the entire series, and I have to admit—that was exactly what I was hoping for.
The Secret I Almost Kept to Myself
When I was writing the original draft of Betrayer, Gabriel and Sol's first meeting was... well, their first meeting. But as I developed Gabriel's character deeper, I kept coming back to this nagging feeling that there was more to his story. Why was he so immediately wary of Sol? Why did he seem to see through her masks so easily?
That's when it hit me: What if he'd seen her before?
I started playing with this idea of Gabriel sitting in that tavern, fresh from the most necessary—and traumatic—act of his life, and encountering this woman who represented everything pure in a world he'd just stained with blood. The more I wrote, the more I realized this wasn't just backstory, this was the emotional foundation of their entire relationship.
Why I Made It a Secret He Could Never Tell
Here's the thing about Gabriel: he's a man who carries impossible burdens. Making this confession something he could never speak aloud felt true to his character. Some truths are too heavy, too dangerous, too wrapped up in other secrets to ever see daylight.
I wanted readers to have access to Gabriel's deepest thoughts in a way that even Sol never could. These confession letters became my way of peeling back every layer of his carefully constructed armor and showing you the man underneath, the one who was "lost to her before he ever knew her name."
The Breadcrumbs I Planted
Looking back, I scattered hints throughout the entire series:
Gabriel's immediate understanding of Sol's hidden anger
The way he seemed to anticipate her moves
His specific knowledge of how she carried herself when she thought no one was watching
That line about her "hunting" even in that first scene
I love that so many of you are going back and catching these details now. That's exactly what I hoped would happen.
The Emotional Weight of Unspoken Truths
What breaks my heart about this particular confession is the tragedy of it. Gabriel watched Sol from the shadows, knowing he was everything she should fear, while she had no idea her future husband was sitting in that dark corner.
The irony that the same night he freed Tarrobane from its greatest monster, he saw the woman who would become his salvation? That wasn't planned. It just happened as I wrote, and I knew I had to keep it.
Why These Letters Matter to Me
These confession letters have become some of my favorite pieces to write because they let me explore Gabriel's voice in a way the main narrative never could. He's so guarded, so careful with his words when he's speaking aloud. But in these letters, written in darkness with only ink and parchment as witnesses, he can finally tell the truth.
They're love letters, yes, but they're also confessions, explanations, and sometimes apologies for things he can never say out loud.
What's Coming Next
I've got more confession letters planned, and let me tell you, Gabriel's secrets run deeper than you think. Each one reveals another layer of this man who's spent his entire life protecting truths too dangerous for daylight.
Thank you for falling as hard for Gabriel and Sol as I did while writing them. Your messages about these letters mean everything to me, and they're exactly why I decided to share Gabriel's deepest thoughts with you.
What confession hit you the hardest? I love reading your reactions in the comments!
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